Tick tick...

It's been ages. Literally.
I've had a lot going on the last few weeks.
Well, not to the open eye. I've been struggling with my own thoughts and emotions.
It's been feeling like I multiplied myself with ten inside of my head, and then every me had a different level on their voice, and different statements, but they were all negative. It has been so tireing and stressful, I felt like banging my head into the wall for more than once. Luckily I have a very understanding workplace and family, so I've been able to build myself up the last few weeks by lot of sleep and relaxation.

So the reason why I haven't blogged is simply because I've been too "busy talking to myelf".

But I'm making it up now!

Starting with this outfit photo:

I wore this the 1st of May.
1st of May this year was a big day for me. First time on stage in 5 years.
5 years of experiencing dark places of my mind..
Standing in front of a crowd after so long, such a huge step. I was nervous to death. Shaking so much I made tiny little earthquakes on the stage. Haha, seriously!
I forgot the entire first song. So glad I brought lyrics, so I could jump back in. But I was struggling so much.
As I finished and walked off stage, I was so broke down I almost cried. But I didn't, and that itself is a victory for me.

But it has made me think of whether or not this is a closed chapter in my life, or a chapter not ready to be written? I have another place to sing in a few months, and I've decided to take it. And after that, we will see.

New things, yaay!

I ordered my first order on Romwe, and I can really tell a difference from paying for shipping and not. The package took ages! Still though, it is a great site who offers a variety of clothing and accesoires.
I ordered these cat earrings (crazy catladyyy), who I got to wear once before they broke :( But I'm going to try to fix them, as they are supercute!

I also ordered Wine Red velvet Leggings(left). Being a hardcore Black Milk fan, I can really tell I've gotten picky. The waistband is so short and it gives me the biggest muffintop. But they are still gorgeous!
I also ordered a new pair of hosiery from ASOS, since I always instantly break them and need a constant refill.

 I also got this peachy nude lipstick from Jemma Kidd, that I've kind of gotten addicted to. I love the colour!

Here's an outfit wearing my new leggings! 

I also got some yummy treats from etsy.com! A site filled with handmade treasures <3 

 I got these alien rings and earrings! She also sent me a sticker, a little candy treat and a note! I love these type of packages, they make me so happy <3

 I also got a cat-eye ring and cat-eye earrings, also with stickers, yaay! I wear these things so much :)

 This new shirt is from Sheinside.com, but I forgot to take photos of it and now it's in the wash, haha.

(Sorry for the bad photo, it's taken with my phone, but I just like my rings too much <3)

These were recieved and instantly put on!

I've been drooling over these for quite a while now, seeing loads of gorgeous ladies wearing them on Lookbook. So I decided to finally order them from prettysucks.de, and I don't regret it. Again, they are not Black Milk quality, but they are super comfy and I'm so happy considering how cheap they were!

 Got this ring while I was at it, as I never really got myself a cross that went horisantally over my fingers, and I had been wanting one for quite a while. I liked that this one was different, it has a bend to it, and it's quite narrow, so it's not the typical cross ring, which I really like!

New leggings, huhu. Borrowed my boyfriend's shirt for this outfit. It's so comfy.

Also decided to go for a little colour splash today, so I wore my Cat Burger-top from DropDead.

Food :

 I finally decided to eat my Pokemon-food. It was very yummy! It's like a typicall norwegian dish, but with curry flavour! And I love curry flavour. I also got a Pokemon-sticker! Happyface :3

I got these in the mail a few days ago! Ordered like 70 diet bars(half of them for my grandma).
These are so great to have, as I can bring them anywhere, they don't need any preparation, and they contain all vitamins and minerals I need! And I spent like half the amount of money buying these online than in the store! Online shopping <3

This post is so incredibly messy. I always make it messy when I have a lot to blog about..
I'm going to try to get better. I've decided to try, by making my secret Facebook-page on Facebook (mwahaha, what have I been doing on Facebook?!) into a sort of blog-site, where I'll try to post a bit more photos of smaller things happening. I think it'll be good practice, as I tend to keep out the entire world and hide myself when I start feeling depressed. So if I only post one photo one of those days, it's an achievement!

You can like the page   >here<.

I'm finishing off with my little Luffy, who I found sleeping in a bed of white, wild flowers <3 I woke her up, though. I'm such a meanie!

She's so tired, haha. Cutest kitty <3


Hopefully I won't use this much time writing my next blogpost. So it won't be such a huge wall of text, haha!

xxx
Camilla

I have a bowler hat!

I was in Oslo yesterday shopping! As a result, I have a lovely bowler hat! This is what I'm wearing today!

I woke up today to breakfast on bed! Felt pretty lucky. Such a great way of waking up after a long day of shopping! Then I took some photos of yesterday's buys : 

A lovely bowler hat and some super cute pink sneakers! Both from Monki. 

 I absolutely love this Arizona tea! I tasted it in Holland first, and then my friend found them in one of the stores on Oslo S, I was so happy! Nomnomnom. I also bought Strawberry pudding. I've never tasted it before, but it looked so yummy!

 A timer for cooking, tooth picks, a lighter, a bath scrub and cocoa almonds!

 An awesome tote-bag with a cute man on it :D

 This lovely shirt is from Monki. Sorry about the bad focus!

 I finally got my hands on some Mac make-up. I only bought a primer, powder, an eye-liner and a lipgloss.

The colours fit my skin very well and it feels so good on. I'm actually not all that interested in make.up, but I like having a bit on, and I like that it looks normal and natural on the skin. It makes me feel so comfortable!

It looks like I've got dip dye here. I've been dying to get my hair dip dyed like this, orange in the top and blond at the bottom. Maybe I should do it next week?
What do you think? Yes/no?








Today I'm going to relax! Might get a friend over, might go out for a walk in the village, we'll see.
What are your plans?
Have a great Saturday!

Camilla